REPOSTED FROM THE TRANS-SCEND BLOG 2016 Hmm, so apparently with the equinox frequencies bringing up a lot of our fears to get up and go I’m facing my own by writing yet another post to talk about things that occurred in my human existence that I keep very close to me. While I do tell people about these things, I have only told people that I “trust” before. This was my way of protecting myself from being vulnerable, to keep those things that others might judge out of the general public so I didn’t have to face that judgement or ridicule. In reality it never works like that, trying to keep myself from being vulnerable only made me vulnerable, trying to keep myself from outside ridicule and judgment never stop my own ridicule and judgement, hiding things from others or storing them deep in my sub unconscious never kept me safe. The only way to do any of that is to open up to my experiences, to really understand what was going on at the time, to understand what I was trying to tell myself and then… to let it all go.
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REPOSTED FROM THE TRANS-SCEND BLOG 2016 I went to do the dishes this morning after feeding our furry children and looked into our double sink and found that my partner had put a pan she had used to cook dinner with on the side that does not have a garbage disposal. My head immediately said “man, I told her not to put stuff with food in them on that side.” Now technically I asked but sometimes our asking is not really asking, it’s more like telling with a lilt in our voice. Why, because we have decided we like things a certain way and that our way is the correct way. I mean, after all, the food that gets on that side I either have to clean up by hand or it gets swept into the drain pipe with no disposal which equals DISASTER. Okay, not really but that is how my human mind works. Either it gives me more work, or it is just Bad with a capitol B and I, of course, know the right way to do things so I “asked” her not to do it again. REPOSTED FROM THE TRANS-SCEND BLOG 2016 We all think we have the worst (fill in the appropriate body part here) in the entire history of human beings. It’s too big, it’s too small, it’s flat, it’s puffy, it’s lumpy, it’s flabby, and it’s whatever you think it is. I had that, plus, well… you know… I was supposed to be a boy!! I mean damn I had boobs for f’ sake, but that is neither here nor there. The real issue is that there is so much bombarding us daily about having the perfect everything and without it we will never be happy, find love, or get the right job, the right car, the right house, the right partner, the right kids or the right dog. Wow, there is a lot riding on how our bodies look isn’t there? REPOSTED FROM THE TRANS-SCEND BLOG 2015 I’ve seen a bunch of things come across social media stating that one type of person is better than another. Where one should get housing, the other not. One should get food the other not. One money and so on and so forth. Responses came in the same form, so and so shouldn’t be treated that way because they served their county. We see it day in and day out where one group of people believes they have the right(s) to do/have/get something over another. It doesn’t matter if it is a matter of race, religion, creed, orientation, gender, social status, financial status, etc. there is nothing in this world that makes one person better or more deserving than another. REPOSTED FROM THE TRANS-SCEND BLOG 2015 I don't know if this is my official first memory or if it is just so strong and had such an impact on the rest of my life that it was elevated to that status. I remember it like it was yesterday and even still remember the elation of the epiphany, the sadness that overwhelmed me right before it was extremely intense and has carried with me. those feelings that come with the memory are the ones that now I know need to dissolve before I can let go of the effect of this memory because it isn't the memory that moves us from the NOW to the past but being stuck in the emotions of the memory that do so.This is how we know we are no longer in the now, it's when the feelings of the past coming rushing back with the memory. In other words if I can reach a point where I remember this in order to retell it to use it to help others with their journey but the emotions or emotional attachments I have to that memory are no longer there then I am using it NOW. |
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