Finding Gratitude

So I'm starting a Gratitude Journal of sorts because I need to find some ounce of it again in my life. At the beginning of March I got let go from my job. It was freelance but I had a good client who I was doing a lot of stuff for. Not only did she let me go without warning, she refused to pay me for my services in February and she didn't reimburse me for products I made for her business that I sent off in the mail before she let me go. And on top of that she refuses to talk to me over a month and a half later still about anything. Without the money from February and having no luck finding a job yet I'm low on cash and feeling pretty horrible about life. This experience has made me feel betrayal like never before, and I don't know who to be angry with the most: myself, this person, the Universe.... but there is plenty of anger, sadness, and overall hurt going on right now.


With my research into the Law of Attraction and other spiritual practices to improve my life, I know a lot about energy and I know I'm not attracting any better experiences in the current state that I am in. I've been in this vortex of lack, loss, and fear of how I'm going to “survive” that it's hard to see through the muck. I thought I'd give a gratitude journal a try and see if I can turn things around in my life. It should only take a few minutes a day to record my thoughts and come up with reasons on how my life is awesome. The more I can see that, the more true it will be. Simple quantum physics.


I'm posting this on Facebook because others may need inspiration to do their own gratitude practices. Or who knows, maybe this won't work (trying to think positive here). Either way we get to see what works and what doesn't, how we learn to shift our perceptions, and other quirky insights along the way. We'll get personal and more vulnerable as time goes on I expect. I need to break through this crap and so let's get started....


As for Day 1, I am grateful for breathing. I didn't sleep well last night but I am grateful I slept a little and I am awake enough to take care of myself and household today. I am grateful for a computer and internet access to apply to jobs online. I am grateful for clean water to drink. I am grateful for the few bucks left in my bank account to go buy food for the next few days. That is something. I am grateful for the ability to type on this computer. Oh boy the tears are coming... false alarm, eyes just watered...but it was emotion not allergies. I'll work on this more later. Start small they say and let it flow. Until next time...


In Gratitude, Elizabeth