REPOSTED FROM CRT 2013
Okay, some of you already know this, some of you may have guessed and others might be a little surprised but I am a hippy at heart and someone that has always questioned the concept of where and why I am on this planet. I have studied a great many different religions to see if I can find some sort of teaching that feels right to me. I have stumbled on several things that have spoken to me in one way or another and have moved me along in my life. While I’m generally not very outspoken about it, this is a major player in this whole road trip taking and I thought I would share, despite the fact that a few of you will probably think I’m crazy (like we didn't already know this).
It started a few years back in Oregon. I found a very interesting guy that talked about spirituality and the “enlightenment” event that made him go from fundamentalist Christian to believing in something very far removed from that line of thinking. He puts on a series of podcasts and blog posts that talk about his experience and the knowledge he has gained and gives recommendations on books and other info to take a look at.
Through him I started reading a ton of Buddhist and Zen things and found meditation. While I don’t practice as much anymore I do still try and find time to meditate but sometimes let other things distract me. These other things are general everyday things that we all do but I now understand they help to keep ourselves further and further from ourselves. In other words, if you think the little voice constantly talking in your head is yourself, think again. The silence behind that voice is really you, don’t take my word for it, I sure as hell wouldn't have a few years ago but I've learned a lot in those years.
All of this, and a few years of learning more and more about myself, have lead me to my current obsession. Yes I drank the Kool-aid, there is no denying it, and that is why I’m about to do what I’m about to do. If you follow the link to the right titled “Franco DeNicola's site” and watch some of the videos he has there you will hear him talk about new energies effecting our planet and how the world is going to change dramatically by 2015. In fact if you really want to know what he is about you can register for his upcoming workshop on June 8th and 9th here http://masterpiecelife.com/ there is even a free registration and they will provide links at the end to listen to it later if you can’t make it during the actual event. Yep, a year and a half from now. I know most, if not all of you will think I’ve cracked up and that there is no way that any of it will happen but I am a believer.
If you knew that you were going to die (or at least the you that you know yourself as right now) in a year and half what would you do? My answer to that question… I quit my job and decided to do what I have been afraid to do for most of my life: Experience life as much as I can. To not experience what we are told is life. To work for nothing, buy too much, try and feel better than everyone else by putting them down and to constantly ridicule myself about how pathetic I am. In fact all those things that happen inside most of our heads that we think don’t happen to others are all made up. Originally that voice was to help us survive, it is now there and so overwhelmed by all the things we see and hear in advertisements and media to keep us afraid to break out of the mold. I've decided to tell that voice to shush and do something that most of us think is crazy but secretly we all want to do. Break out of the cycle that keeps us slaves to the financial and fear systems that run wild in this world.
If he’s right, then in a year and a half I will either leave this world or the world will change. If he’s wrong then I will have spent a year and a half having one hell of an experience and then take it from there.
There is also a second and more widely excepted reason and therefore the one I've shared with some of you and it is to actually write and let people read it. I had an amazing time writing the Guardian Angel updates for BF and tons of comments about how well I write and how much I touched people. I used to want to be a writer but then that voice told me I wasn't good enough, I would fail, writers don’t make enough money, and probably tons more stuff that was basically just a bunch of fear messages that I would listen to and so I stopped writing. Now I’m writing again and I want to put it out there. If you like it, awesome, if you don’t that is awesome too. This is about facing my fears, while I hope something touches you and makes you think, I’m really just in this to do it. Thanks for listening!